My Life!!!!!!!!!!

i m sad and bored.... : (

2006-02-24T00:55:00.000-08:00

hmmm....2 weeks is over..another two weeks to go. hope it will b a fast 1. i pray n hope th fatty babyboy is fine. thats abt it. as for the count down....17 days more...so f**ked up...

life @ work without my babyboy...

2006-02-17T00:48:00.001-08:00

My first day at work was not a good 1. I m juz gonna miss my baby coz i wun be seeing him or hearing from him for 1 month. The thought of it juz killing me...me can't wait for the days to run fast for me to meet my guy and hug him. Baby if u eva gt to read my blog....i luv u and miss u sooo much. My first valentine's day wif my guy did not come true...n like wat every1 say everyday is valentine's day. I dun care but i juz want my baby to b safe and sound...big gifts or anything can't make me as happy as seeing my baby smiling and laughing. Counting down the dayz....24 dayz more. Luving u as eva...actully to think abt it through this i m actully luving u more...hahahaha....muah...lastly i m feeling very sick juz having high fever and bad flu...itz juz running me down...hope everything works out for good. God bless

life @ work without my babyboy...

2006-02-17T00:48:00.000-08:00

Life...2006

2006-01-03T20:41:00.000-08:00

Wow 2005 is juz so gone...boy m i happy...the old has passed away and now everything is new.
I am enjoyin every moment with my beloved boyfren also known as Sardine. He is such a sweetheart and most of all can't take my eyes off his cute little ass.hahahah Our group is juz gettin bigger with the new addition of Dass and Sanchana, eleyas a.k.a rat bro. Enjoyin every moment of being with my frenz nt to forget anu and kalai, Priya and roy.

On monday 2nd jan enjoyed being in the recording...was so mesmerised by my baby playin the keyboard. he was soo cute...he was like some professional. Comin back after recording in the car was so funny...we were all laughing like nobodys biz.hahahah Juz missed my best fren...she was not there...Anu u were so good man..ur singing was great.

My new Life...

2005-11-28T23:35:00.000-08:00

Life is goin great...missing my baby. Love u so much baby. As life is goin i begin to realise who my true frens are. Despite the fact that i have been with my church frenz for very long time they can neva be compared with my true frenz, they juz put up a show of being ur true frenz but truly they are backstabbers. Frenz are suppose to be with us through thick and thin but these people are neglecting people who they know longer for some new idiots who juz go around playing around with pplz life. But it does not mean that my church people are no good but there some ppl u can never trust.

My birthday is coming in another 3 days time. I juz hav no mood to celebate my birthday after whateva which has happen during this year. But thanks to every1 who cares abt me i m coming out of it slowly. Would like to take this time to thank all my frenz for all they have done and for all they are to me. Namely....My best fren Priscilla...i luv u gal for all u r to me, Anu(my new best fren) and all the best with ur new relationship, Sitikus( plz tell ur opportunity abt me...hahaha), Azila( my darling who always lends her ears to all my stories), Arfah (my elder sis), Herald(my good guy fren), Osheana n Chris(my wondrful cousins who hav been there for me), My bro and lina(luv u guys soooooooooo much), Deen(myBF), Roy( cute chap), Kalai(naughty boy...hahahah). and many more...Too many to thank...love u guys soo much.

Back to STudies

2005-10-24T22:25:00.000-07:00

Back to studies after six long months of attachement....Now hav to go for lectures and tutorials...do tutorials(thats wat i hate the most) Anyway by doin it it juz only helps me to acheive my aims in life; 1) Go to the U
2) Forget Timothy ShivaShankar(The First Class Idiot and b**tard)
Enough is Enough!!! Got to get over the nightmare and diesase
3)Please my parents and my Bro...
Thanks to the idiot who told me not to tell anyone about what happen but who decided in the end to get a good name by confessing. He is such a stupid dick. What more to say...dun know y this type of dicks are still alive in the world and doin well in life. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!
Look is it true if u r some1's daughter whom is holding a responsible position...u should b pampered and nt accused of anything even though it is wrong...I dun know some b**ches jus get to enjoy life. What will happen to them...Hope they will die soon...real soon. Pray hard if u think it should happen.HAHA........

sick

2005-10-12T21:55:00.000-07:00

Juz recovered...boy was i very sick. My baby is also sick...hope i did not pass him the virus.
Anway life is getting better i guess....i m juz enjoyin life as it is but me will never forget watever tat dick head did to me. i can say i have forgived bt it will never be forgotten. Church is somewhere i dun wanna to b nowdayz. I prefer to be on my own...and doin things on my own. now i hav a new gd fren called Anu(aka mad gal). We guyz r doin the wierdest things in the world...hahahaha...enjpyin every moment of it. I also miss shalini an yvonne and their stupid jokes...hahahaha lokking 4ward to u guys to b back to sch. Luv u anu , shalini, yvonne, and my best fren how can i forget u and ur amul baby. Love you Babyboy.

All About me!!!!

2005-08-22T00:44:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone....back after a very long time to blog. I hav had alot of things happenin around me. My cousin Bro....(take note brother) is flirting with me. How bad can it b. I feel so disgusted. To hell with him and all his rubbish. I m now taking a turn back to God. I wanna look to Him bcoz with Him all things are possible. I hav looked to pple (many ppl) but all that is of no help at all. But When i decide to Pray and believe in God alot of things are comin back to normal. I will never say i dun have any problems now but despite all of it i m able to smile like b4. TSS is always a major problem in life 4 me. tryin so hard to gt things back but i dun know if it is wrkin. But like i said with God all things are possible. With faith in God i submit everythin to him. Now i m so away from guys...oh goodness i m very afraid to talk to any1 now. i m so much beta off without talkin to any1...

------LIfe--------

2005-07-12T18:18:00.000-07:00

Hey back to blogging after a few dayz. Life is taking a big turn now. Although i m feeling very sad abt my previous relationship with TS my frenz juz helps me to make my day. I m waiting for him and always will coz i m nt like other gals who luvs to change their minds and move in life wif another fellow. I m juz nt like tat at all.

God is so wonderful coz tis whole eposide in my life has made me realize so many things in life and m still learning alot of things. The most important thing i hav realized is no matter who stays wif me or leaves me i always hav my God beside me as my comforter and as everything in my life.

The last time i met him which was yesterday i felt bad meetin him coz everytime we meet tings which i dun wanna happen, happens. Wen he gts a call he moves away to talk. I dun know if he is attached. I really dun know where thing between us is heading to but i really hope itz for gd.

confusion

2005-07-05T19:44:00.000-07:00

Childish, Immature and gaining sympathy....words from my ex-boyfren. Watelse is to come from him i dun know. But it is most surely goin to b Words which will hurt me. I juz had nough of everythin goin around me.

Luv him alot.....

2005-06-30T21:23:00.000-07:00

oh goodness! He has always gt to sy something to hurt me very much. aiyo....i really dun know what to do....i suppose to hate him for doing it but i still luv him alot. What is wrong with me ha? I dun know...

Being a full time student and doin part time really sucks to the max. It is very tiring but i really thank god for giving me strength everyday. All i do is do is come to sch and go to wrk and go home and sleep, Tis is my daily routine. I dun hav time to enjoy anymore but ppl of my age are enjoyin sooo much.

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2005-06-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

Back to bloging again after 4 days....alot of things happen in this 4 days. Went through alot of shit and @ the same time had some gd times also. I went 4 a youth retreat organised by my church and in the retreat learned alot of gds things and i also decided to change at some areas in my life where i m lacking. Will be talking abt tat in the coming blogs (in days to come). i hate tis fellow in church 'M' he is irritating me to the max....his gives this stupid looks which makes me feel like slappin him. I wish i really can go up to him and give a nice slap on his face.

As for me and TS i really dun know wat is the happins between us. I still love him alot alot alot but i really dun know abt him. I dun know wat is he thinkin. when he wants to talk to me he calls. when i want to talk he juz shuts me off. God knows the pain i m goin through. I hope i can go somewhere i dun need to go throuht all tis. Somewhere far far and very far.

happy....

2005-06-23T20:29:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a very gd 1....i m so happy i met TS. He was very cute...hahahah Luv him always.Muackzzzz

I dun understand @ all................wat's happin?

2005-06-22T09:40:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!! Wat's happin? I dun know.....wat m i to say? I dun know wat is happin around me. Yesterday when i spoke to TS he said somethings which i really dun understand till now. I feel so disturbed. Who m i to cry to? why does this always hav to happen to me. Here i m workin so hard to make things work bt there is something there which i dun even know wat is spoiling everything. Oh Lord!!!!!!!!!! i doubt he knows tat the words he uses is very hurting. He juz blurts out everything which comes out of his mouth without thinking. What m i to do? I dun know the ans for this Question....... ",

2nd day @ work + My sad LIFE

2005-06-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

Last nite was very tiring coz was my first day at work. It was also fun at the same time coz me gt to meet new ppl. But all that does nt matter much to me i juz miss my Pa sooooooooooooo much. I juz dun gt it y he does nt understand me at all....i know i did alot of mistakes but i hav really changed now and really want to gt things back on track like how it used to be last time. The only thing i can do is only pray and ask God for a miricle to take place and his heart to change, i believe only the God i trust in will change him.

When i first gt into tis relationship i was really nt ready for the relationship but within one week i really wanted the relationship to work and me hoped for the best. I know i have hurt him alot but i dun know if it is too late to regret. Now my mum is ok with me luvin him but i dun know wats goin to happen. The one month we had was very very short but despite all the problem we had there are moments which are still very close to my heart. I will never forget them for as long as i live. If there is evea a way i can express all my feelings? Is it really my bad time tat whenever i ask or really hope for something in my life it juz does nt turn out the way i want. I raelly dun know

MY first Day @ KM & work

2005-06-20T15:00:00.000-07:00

My First day at KM sucks....i hate sittin infront of computers. I juz wonder how 2 months here is goin to be. I m very excited coz i m goin to start work and it will most surely will help me gt my minds off Ts. He is really drivin me nuts. Spoke to him around 12 and he was very damm Rude!!!!!!!!!!! I called to ask if he was doing gd but our fren has a attitude problem. Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!! I really really hope he realize that i m truley sorry and m very serious abt makin things work again. Luv him alot alot and miz him alot alot....Muackzzzzzzzzz